confused

Hmm, Mid-Year Exam (MYE) is here. Chinese, Social studies and English paper 1 is over. like finally. But, I really think that my english paper 1 go bang wall alrd. Social studies i never write finish. like 2 more sentence? Uh. i need more time management ): Chinese is another bang wall subject. But, i would now focus on my 9 papers next week. 2 A.maths paper, 2 E.maths paper, 1 English paper, 1 FNN paper, 3 Science paper. I really pray that whatever i study, will not go to waste, i will be able to gain more wisdom, knowledge and concentrations. I will be able to turn negative thoughts to positive, from helpless to hopeful, from frowns to smiles. MYE is here, and loads of problems came along with it. Why can't those problems give me a break? I'm so tired at times. So annoyed at times. But how do i tell you? How can i tell you everything i'm thinking? You, have so much problems too. Do you know how upset i am that you are working so hard to support me? Do you know i'm doubting whether your new job actually suits you? Sometimes all i want is just more attention from you. I want your love, your care 24/7. But i know 24/7 is impossible. therefore, i only want it when i'm home. Yet, you aren't home often when i am. Do you know to me, you are my whole world other than God, you are my mother, my friend, my motivater, ..... Do you know what is the reason behind that i push myself forward? That is to fufill the promise i made to you once. I AM GOING TO UNIVERSITY.. I do not want to give you dissapointment for i know i dissapoint you loads of time in some other area. But, now, i am really confused. I do not know what is the next step i could take. I am being to be getting weary from small things like giving smiles to people to be polite, till big things like the MYE.

But, I'll try to be like the tree who can bend instead of break in tough weather (times). Okay, thats all. Will update soon (: