Blinded .

I'll just post a post without photos . Found a nice one to explain my mood now . But it's copyrighted . So well , yep .

Was listening to relaxing music . Calmed my heart . And i've realized what's wrong .

Spiritually i'm tired . Real tired . I don't feel refresh .

I admit , last week i didnt went to church . Not due to the rain but i just don't feel like going . I feel like as though i've got alot of things to do . I feel busy . Slightly weary . But i though it was normal . It was just the way it is and i've used the rain as an excuss . I've realized i was wrong . I was so blinded with everything . As though babylon . What's there to hold on to things don't belong to you ? It's empty . Yet , i choose to hold on so tightly to nothing . To empty . What a fool . It's so empty and cold . Yet i hold on so tightly and long . Didn't i fear that my soul would catch a cold ?

Ever since the previous sermon or so sermon i've attended , i've though i should have integrity . And have nothing to hide so i'll have nothing to fear of . At least i'm true to myself . But , i was only one-sided focusing . There are many things you'll need to do for everything to be in order . I was such a fool . I should face the fact . Though humans usually wouldn't .

A great saying i really liked it : " For with much wisdom , comes with much sorrow ; the mroe the knowledge the more grief - Ecclesiastes 1 : 19 "

How true ? Don't you think so ?

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Random updates : Been slacking eversince first week ended . I need to buck up now . If not everything will go to waste . I mustn't give up .

- God bless , Fionatwy .