Mask

What kind of mask are you wearing now ?
Or you are not wearing any & feeling vulnerable now ?
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Lots of things happen this year , glad its ending .
But as O's approach , i wonder would i be able to move on .
Have you ever felt this ?
Negavity kept invading & yet you can't seems to do anything to stop it .
Plastic expression is what you can give people .
Sometimes when you feel like crying , yet you could only smile and hide your tears .
When you want to cry , it had to be in a corner or when it's dark and no one knows .
You pretend to be fine , yet deep down you're dying inside .
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Sighs . I'm tired .
& Its the very last lap . In less than a month , it will be freedom .
But how free would it be ?
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Someone once told this ,
" What don't kill you , make you stronger . I'm sure in future you'll be a strong woman" .
But , so what if im a strong woman ?
Just because I come off strong , doesn't mean there's nothing wrong .
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Yes , often things would be hard and it's how we face it would affect our emotions . But right now , yes , i feel so negative . :(
Would i be able to survive in this cruel world ?
I wonder which mask to take on to carry on this journey .
Tough life .
I believe , right now , all i can do is just pray & pray .
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Remembered the story footprints in sand ,
wonder if God would really carry me through all these storms and continue to walk with me throughout .
Sighs . As usual , what will be would meant to be .