FIONATANWANYI(:

Hello 2012

2012-01-08T18:48:00.000+08:00

One nice song that i thought of sharing . ;) Hope you guys would like it ! :B

LYRICS
I hear your steps, the same old pace
You never speak when you walk in
I watch your hands, they know the way
But I can't feel you on my skin
Your mouth still moves with empty lines
When there is nothing left to say
Our fingers clasped and intertwined
But you still feel so far away
If you feel like it's over
Won't you tell me the truth
'Cause I can't feel you any longer
As the flame burns out on me and you
Those three small words have lost their shine
When we recite them carelessly
Your lips still kiss with each goodnight
But now we rush to fall asleep
If you feel like it's over
Won't you tell me the truth
'Cause I can't feel you any longer
As the flame burns out on me and you
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All lyrics written by Colleen D'Agostino.
Copyright © 2011 Colleen D'Agostino.

End of 2011 .

2011-12-31T13:41:00.003+08:00

Oh well , last post for the year 2011 .
As you can see my blog is only active this month with the most post ! HAHAH !
It had been a memorable year being in 4E7'11 .
From the start of year , it was shooting and councillor keeping me busy .
Than it was my mid year exams & Alpha kids during the june holidays .
After that was Pitch 11 & Prelims .
People must be thinking i must be crazy . going for competition near the prelims .
Oh well , Than , after prelims was break & O's . Than Escapade & my unfortunate incident .
And work , Christmas , tution party & NOW ! NEW YEAR COMING :B
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This year was really a insecure , backstabbing , chaos , fun through hard times , working dam hard year ! HAHAH .
Oh & Fun ! More during the end year of 2011 .
Learnt alot through things around me .
Really thank God for being there everytime when bad things happen esp during the later part of 2011 .
And those real friends who stood by me .
As time goes by . You'll realized how important the saying is . Don't promise what you can't do .
Experience disappointment from others , made other disappointed too . Oh well .
But , im ending 2011 with no regrets .
Afterall everything happen for a reason .
Everything is under God's plan .
Just want to delicate some messages to people around .
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Deer : Thanks Deer for being there when i need you & I'm glad i was there when you need me too . We been through alot . Really . I'm really happy you went back into God embrance . Cause when i was attending church , in the book of relevations it said about the world ending . I was afraid . I knew somehow i need to bring you back . Into His embrace . But i don't know how . But i glad God did it and through your own hard times when we couldn't meet and such your cell group is always praying for you and such . Love you lots deer ! :B SEE YOU SOON TOO ! :)
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Bobo : Thanks for this year babe ! :B We've been classmates for 4 years and this is the year when we finally get all close together ! You know you are really cuteeeeee ? Hahaha ! Esp when you squat at my table there ! HAHAHA . Oh , miss those days when we're like gossiping about R and such eh ? :B And we been thr difficult times such as O's & i'm always nagging and saying things about what you shouldn't do and such ! Hahaha . I know sometimes i'm like rude in saying somethings . Though i know you won't take it to heart . But just wanna let you know anything , tell me . I'm here . What i say may not be what you like but because . Really , i treat you as a real close friend . Babe ! See you soon kay ! :B
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Sihui : HEY THERE ! Grats you made it for O's yeah ? :B Together w wen ! Don't be upset that you can't get the scholarship and stuff . there's always a second chance . Work harder for O's yeah ? Anything can ask me uh ! :B Hmm .. I'm actually kinda shock about your decision to do what you want and such BUT . I respect your choice . Though i really wish you'll come back to God embrace soon . I'm just afraid it'll be too late . But , i believe God have a bigger and better plans for you . All the best for 2012 okay ? :) Anything remember , i'll be there for you !
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Sister : SISTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ! :B THANKS ALOT FOR VISITING ME AND SUCH EH ! :B I really appreciate it ! HAHAH . Hmm , you're really a fun person to hang out with ! With the weird things you can come up with really make me laugh hahah ! See when monopoly deal again kay ! :B And Do take care of yourself sister ! That day you fever i really feel so bad :/ Anyways next time anything , tell me also kay ! HAHAHA . SEE YOU SOON :B
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Zhao Rong : HEY DUDE ! HAHAHA . We're like getting closer after O's :B You're really a shopping guy ! HAHAHA . Next time go shopping together again okay ? :) Maybe nearer to chinese new year ! You're a fun and nice guy to hang out with ! Enjoyed talking with you and such too ! You give people the feeling of can rely any problems on you one ! HAHAHA . Hope you've enjoyed the Christmas play though ! Any more such events i'll first one call you kay dude ! :D
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Farhana : HELLO NANA ! Am really glad our long distance friendship could last so long ! Really sorry that i didnt spend much time w you since Sec 3 and such . Hmm . we're really the opposite and yet , we like crazy together ! HAHAH . Miss walking to the bus stop w you and such . Hanging in school , Mac and just laughing and talking rubbish . Oh those were the days ! HAHAHA . MISS YOU LOTS ! Wonder if you ever remember ! HAHAHA ! Next time , let's go coffeebean and eat their free wireless again kay ! HAHAH . And NOT that weird TEA ever . God . HAHAHA . SEE YOU SOON :B
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Hmm , think it's time to make new year resolution ? HAHAH . Oh well , really hope i can get into the same poly w those friends listed above . But , it still depends on results and stuff . Okay , better get going . Shall end here . ENJOY YOUR 2012 PEEPS . AND THOSE WHO ARE GOING TO COUNTDOWN TODAY , TAKE CARE AH . SEE YOU GUYS SOON :B
GOODBYE 2011 . HELLO 2012 .

Peace at heart .

2011-12-20T20:39:00.004+08:00

HELLO PEEPS .
Well , Christmas is coming real soon & the N levels results are out !
Am really glad my friends all made it into Secondary 5 :)
WELL DONE !
To those who feel that you didn't do well enough , work harder for your O's !
Believe in yourself that you can do it & you'll do it ! :D
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Well , nowadays i don't really do much except for watching running man ! :)
It's really a very nice & funny entertainment show .
Think due to running man , it kinda help me with how i feel nowadays too ? HAHAHA .
Oh well , some people asked me how i was feeling these few days .
& it really make me think .
I think i'm feeling really much better . :)
Well , somethings are really not meant to last .
Oh well , life like this isn't it ? :D
Actually being out of love , it's not really that miserable .
It's that miserable because you don't want to let go .
Sometimes people said they tried their best to .
But , yet because you spent too much with that person .
Too much that if you let go , you'll miss too much too .
Time will heals friends .
Oh will , let's not get too emotional here kay . :D
WATCH RUNNING MAN ! HAHAHAH . HIGHLY RECOMMEND LOL .
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Oh ! I'm like finally starting work tomorrow ?
While others like ending their work soon . LOL .
HOPEFULLY . THE GUY I SAW AT THE STUDENTCARE STILL WORK THERE .
LOL . People dont misunderstood that like cause it's hunks or whatever .
Cause i don't want be the only student working there !! :z
HAHAHA . Okay nothing much to update now , EXCITED FOR WORK .
BYE :D
Stay happy always friends . Life's short .

Happiness

2011-12-14T18:49:00.003+08:00

How does one define happiness ?
Somethings in our hustle & bustle life , many of us tends to have numerous of incoming & ongoing problems making us lost the meaning of happiness .
Some of us may be trap in relationship . Be it with friends or families .
Honestly , in 2011 i really lost my happiness .
How sad isn't it . Oh well , that explains for my past negativity post !
Sometimes i tried to be happy .
Sometimes someone really made me happy .
BUT . That doesn't last .
Always there seems to be something that seems to be tying me down .
Making me feel so negative .
But right now , everything changed .
I've realized there are many friends out there who really cares .
Really appreciate them <3
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Oh well , I find this month quite nice too :)
I had my once in a lifetime REST . HAHAHA .
Due to the accident i got alot of restrictions . Was bed-ridden for a week !
Man ! Never before i rest for so long !
HAHAHA . Oh people who are reading this , don't worry i'm fine now .
I don't have any fractures (THANK GOD!) But with muscles tear .
Oh . I guess its a blessing in disguise ?
Had a really long rest . In the past my longest rest was like a day or two ?
Than i've to be busy with all sorts of stuff !
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Oh last note , CHRISTMAS IS COMING ! :D
I'M REALLY EXCITED !
Going for my first Christmas Play from my church ! :D
Hopefully all my TEN tickets will be used ! :D
OH WELL . PEOPLE SPREAD THE LOVE KAY !
CHRISTMAS IS THE BIRTH OF JESUS CHRIST & IT'S THE FESTIVE OF GIVING ! :D
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Live with no regrets :)

Hesistant .

2011-12-07T17:14:00.005+08:00

Finally O's are over yeah ? Been months since i post anything .
Oh well , who reads them anyways ?
Well just some update :)
After O's i drag myself to go for this ESCAPADE2011 held by Singapore Poly .
Initially it was really boring , BUT . ALL FUNS BEGINS WHEN WE HAD THE BUSINESS THINGY .
My group created some LIPOFUEL kind of thing .
Since its about conservation & environmental friendly .
Had lots of laughs . Been ages since i laugh like that .
After that we walk around the campus to go somewhere & ALL FUNS CONTINUES .
Had a dancing part which was pretty boring initially , BUT .
THANKS TO MY B09 MONSTER LEADER - NABILAH .
We started tapping people & PASTE POST STICK ON PEOPLE ! HAHAHAH.
Oh well , my plan failed on Jia Lun though :(
But nevertheless, IT WAS FUN .
ENJOYED MYSELF ALOT . THANKS SINGAPORE POLY FOR ORGANISING IT !
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Before i forget , i went for Prom & Shooting Farewell party too :)
Prom was nice , BUT kind of boring as it was more of watching the performaces .
But i enjoyed myself thanks to the MC ! :D
Didnt stay for long as bro came to fetch me !
Oh well , didnt manage to take photo w some people but compensates it during the Shooting farewell ! Photos all in FACEBOOK :D
SHOOTING FAREWELL PARTY
Enjoyed myself this farewell ! Was interesting to meet new juniors & see my juniors becomes !
ALL VERY FUNNY & NICE ! :D
Sadly , not ALL JUNIORS came . A number of my close juniors was not there :(
Anyways , it was still awesome & really thank the upcoming SEC4 BATCH !
They plan & did the decorations , etc .
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Oh well , i didnt went for REDCAMP thus , nothing to post about it !
But i will be going to their open house ! :D
Oh before i forget , IM ANTICIPATING CHRISTMAS ! :D
Going to my church play this christmas ! :DDD
Oh , its Christmas eve ! hahaha !
Alright , shall stop blogging if not i'll be ranting rubbish soon ! :D
BYE PEEPS (IF ANYONE READS) ! :D
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what will be will meant to be .

Mask

2011-10-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

What kind of mask are you wearing now ?
Or you are not wearing any & feeling vulnerable now ?
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Lots of things happen this year , glad its ending .
But as O's approach , i wonder would i be able to move on .
Have you ever felt this ?
Negavity kept invading & yet you can't seems to do anything to stop it .
Plastic expression is what you can give people .
Sometimes when you feel like crying , yet you could only smile and hide your tears .
When you want to cry , it had to be in a corner or when it's dark and no one knows .
You pretend to be fine , yet deep down you're dying inside .
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Sighs . I'm tired .
& Its the very last lap . In less than a month , it will be freedom .
But how free would it be ?
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Someone once told this ,
" What don't kill you , make you stronger . I'm sure in future you'll be a strong woman" .
But , so what if im a strong woman ?
Just because I come off strong , doesn't mean there's nothing wrong .
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Yes , often things would be hard and it's how we face it would affect our emotions . But right now , yes , i feel so negative . :(
Would i be able to survive in this cruel world ?
I wonder which mask to take on to carry on this journey .
Tough life .
I believe , right now , all i can do is just pray & pray .
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Remembered the story footprints in sand ,
wonder if God would really carry me through all these storms and continue to walk with me throughout .
Sighs . As usual , what will be would meant to be .

Blinded .

2011-06-07T22:31:00.003+08:00

I'll just post a post without photos . Found a nice one to explain my mood now . But it's copyrighted . So well , yep .

Was listening to relaxing music . Calmed my heart . And i've realized what's wrong .

Spiritually i'm tired . Real tired . I don't feel refresh .

I admit , last week i didnt went to church . Not due to the rain but i just don't feel like going . I feel like as though i've got alot of things to do . I feel busy . Slightly weary . But i though it was normal . It was just the way it is and i've used the rain as an excuss . I've realized i was wrong . I was so blinded with everything . As though babylon . What's there to hold on to things don't belong to you ? It's empty . Yet , i choose to hold on so tightly to nothing . To empty . What a fool . It's so empty and cold . Yet i hold on so tightly and long . Didn't i fear that my soul would catch a cold ?

Ever since the previous sermon or so sermon i've attended , i've though i should have integrity . And have nothing to hide so i'll have nothing to fear of . At least i'm true to myself . But , i was only one-sided focusing . There are many things you'll need to do for everything to be in order . I was such a fool . I should face the fact . Though humans usually wouldn't .

A great saying i really liked it : " For with much wisdom , comes with much sorrow ; the mroe the knowledge the more grief - Ecclesiastes 1 : 19 "

How true ? Don't you think so ?

Random updates : Been slacking eversince first week ended . I need to buck up now . If not everything will go to waste . I mustn't give up .

- God bless , Fionatwy .

By the sea

2011-05-22T17:39:00.003+08:00

Just finished my Mid-Year Exams it was a lesson well-learnt .

The situation was just like my Shooting competition .

Maybe , it lies with the full amount of preparation and not the last minute rush .

But , Humans are like that , they tend to procrastinate and usually do things only in the last minute .

Gosh , i must really change and stop procrastinating .

It's time to have a decisive heart or it will lead to fatal consequences HAHAHA !

No lah ! Just mentioning something of what i learnt in church today but not in the correct context . The correct context should be " Beware of the undecided heart as it would lead to unguarded moment resulting in fatal consequences " .

Yup , so people , remember to have a decided heart and stay far far away from Danger .

Afterall, Wisdom starts with God ; it protects the heart ; uses words carefully ; chooses wise company ; it values the family ; & it shines like stars :D

Just something else i thought of sharing even though there might not even be anyone reading this at all . " Wisdom is not just knowing the right thing. You must know 5Husbands & 1 Wife . Who , Where , Why , What , When , How . "

Thought of all this , i realized i learnt alot via all these services . Lots of life lessons learnt .

Alright , shall end this now . Going out later to buy pens :D

sitting down by the sea and reflect about life . How great would it be ? (:

Believe .

2011-04-23T22:07:00.001+08:00

Another update once again (:

Had my final competition for shooting in my secondary school life .

Many things learned .

I value this competition a lot as it was my final competition and after that i might not even touch air rifle anymore .

But , i didn’t do well at all .

However , i did my best .

After speaking to the coaches , i found my mistake .

I trained too last minute . I didn’t really put much effort previously until the March holidays .

This made me reflected about many stuff .

Somehow , i placed my priorities on other stuff .

Somehow , i didn’t put effort till i know i am at the point of losing it ; Of not having it anymore .

Then , i was driven to put in effort . To do MY BEST .

What an irony .

But that’s just so Human .

Anyways , i have decided . I am going to continue to shoot if i am given another chance .

I don’t want another last minute .

This time round i got to do my best !

This , i believe another big lesson learned .

So right now for my studies , i must not make the same mistake again .

START from the very START ; Only END at the very END . AND , always do your best no matter what .

I thank God for letting me know this through this competition .

So , i will be able to remember it .

Anyways , apart from this , i attended the Good Friday CEFC event .

It was one word to describe ‘AWESOME’ .

But some speaker talked rather fast and words just cant get into my head !

However , generally it was real awesome .

& Tomorrow’s is EASTER DAY ! \Y/

Enjoy people !

Nostalgic

2011-04-10T21:01:00.005+08:00

Just had that very nostalgic feeling & decided to post this as i have finished my CCE 2 script writing ! Well, was browsing through my computer to look for a suitable nostalgic photo to post . But , i didnt managed to find any suitable ones . However , i found many old old photos like secondary 2 photos etc . Swweeet memories . Anyways fyi this photo is taken from google images which actually kinda depicts what i feel like now . 6 more months minus 1 day would be my 16th birthday alrd . Time passes in an blink of an eye . I'm alrd 16 and grow deeper in Christianity ( my new religion ) . Many conflict pass . Many people went and came back into my life be it indirectly or directly . Once again another major exam is upcoming . I won't make the same mistake 4 years back again . I must really study hard . Bonds between friends have been tighten this year and i am really really very glad . 2011 came in a BLAST . Fell sick countless of times this year . From headache to flu to cough to throat to stomach and blah . But i'm glad throughout all i'm FINE now . I hope i will be still fine too (: Haaha . I miss primary school when things are not so complex , friends are awesome & the study materials are easier too ! Haaha ! Just a quick update : Time really flies . I will be stepping down from the Yuhua Councillor board this wednesday . Still remembered when i first join i receieved a phone call from Melvyn about a short meeting and blah ! I was kinda excited though as i had never in my life was a leader in school as primary school they often see the grades and kinda competitive . Next , shooting interschool competition is finally coming . I really hope i will be able to participate in the interschool as it's my last year alrd . After what Miss Haw said one evening , i kinda regretted that i did not put so much effort in shooting though . But , what's done have been done . Now , i have to work hard . Give my best shot . Do my best and perserve . Make use fully of this last one week . Then , would be studies . The ' O ' level MTL is upcoming soon . and MYE which is the week after my competition i guess ? Everything like crash together :( BUT , i believe i will be able to make time and study since i can have few minutes to go to facebook , blogger and twitter right ? (: Lastly , would be my emotions i think ? Had a few weeks not being able to hold my emotions much but i am glad i'm better now . Sometimes , things have to be let go like the balloon . And it will float off and dissappear HAHAHA Personal reflection : At every moment , there would be a time when you can't do things anymore . Your feet would begin to feel like having stones covering it up that's why you can't move . Those stones might be of letting go over several bad issues you have with family or friends , stresses , does not move on . & most importantly , FORGIVENESS . That's was what i learn today though . Confess about all sins , seek forgiveness & cleansing . & when you are able to achieve that , shouldn't you follow God's ways too ? As God's ways are always BIGGER & BETTER . (: God bless .

Holidays ?

2011-03-15T21:09:00.004+08:00

What is it that we pursue in life ? Passion ? Money ? Happiness ? Faith ? Love ? Family ?
Boundless of answers and question would definitely be given . Right now , i don't feel much now

like the picture above . Don't ask me what happened or why . Parts of it i don't know . Parts of it i understand why . You don't have to carry on reading it's just nothing much of any importance at all . But , i will just continue typing .

All seems to be well , fine and happy . Is it on the exterior or interior ?

Dissappointment fills up . But faith remains and grew stronger . Is this pure stupidity or what ?

Or was it just too much . Letting go would be the key . So be it .

Blogging at Such Hour

2011-02-27T00:06:00.002+08:00

Yupp! Updating my blogger after weeks of school ! BUT yet, whyies such hour ? Honestly speaking, i got no idea . I can't sleep -.- Today did quite a number of things and finished most of my homeworks already ! Except a few of them ! Intended to do but my brain cant seems to think maybe ít's clog or what ! Haaha . Well , school has started and term break will come in another 2 to 3 weeks . Don't really ANTICIPATE the holidays as i don't believe it will be any much different from the usual school lessons . The only thing would be that the lessons will start later and we won't follow the bell ? So far , school have been GREAT . kept getting sick the starting of year and missed the lessons . So , in return the next week i had to stay back daily to seek different teachers to ask what i have missed or left out . But apparently , i was ABLE to get use to the busy schedule . Amazed myself . I believe it's God works going on :D
Other than studies , i still have my Shooting and Life saving . Thank God that i was able to get a break for february even its for one or two sessions as i had to stay back after school till Super late . As for shooting , i seriously don't understand whyies when i want to go training somedays i will just simply feel so sick -.- Anyways i got to improve my skills real soon interschool will come in a blink of an eye followed by my chinese GCE O Level ! Before that, we will have to PAY for the papers first :D
Btw , i just had the SPORTS HEAT and it was kinda Uh , okayy . LOL ! As that day my muscle was rather pain and i was SOOOO NERVOUS due to 4e5 throwing so farrrr PRESSURIZED you know ? HAHAHA. i threw the Javelin with alot of stength to release the NERVOUS ended up i was said that i like want kill people -.- BUT generally , i am kinda glad as i have IMPROVED since last year by 1m LOL !
Alright , think it would be time for bed soon :D
ALL THE BEST PEOPLE IN WHATEVER YOU DO :D
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-FIONATANWANYI(:

The upcoming 2011

2010-12-30T22:01:00.003+08:00

Whee! Had a different Christmas this year went to Keith’s aunt house and his house. *shall not elaborate* Anyways didn’t managed to celebrate with Qingwen this year but , we celebrated during the eve! hahaha (:

School will reopen in another 4 days or so . Kind of excited yet worried . 2011 i believe will be a hectic year with loads of test papers, mock exams, common tests, worksheets, remedials, supplementary-s, and so on. BUT! in less than 365 more days i will just simply finish my O level exams! than i will just have to wait for my result without trying to be worried! hahah! i wonder if i can do that! GAHHH! not to forget next year i will also have to train for interschool!

Pray that next year whatever hard work i put in , i will be able to taste the fruit after the labour Alright people, will update once again after school started if i have the time to BYEE!

Another half month to 2011

2010-12-15T11:19:00.002+08:00

Hectic lifestyle it had been . Went for a family trip in 1 Dec to 4 Dec . The trip was one word to describe 'RUSH' . Shall not mention much anymore though . (:
After coming back from the trip , few days later had my CPR test . Was happy that i PASSED ! (:
But something happen-ed too ( shall not mention ) , and it kinda make me feel more weary and tired . :( Alright should be able to stay on & everything will be alright in the end . i believe . Meanwhile , nowadays been playing and studying :O Left with 31 more homeworks . Gosh . School is going to be reopen in another 1/2 month or so and still so much homeworks left ! Going to work hard and study alrd lahhh ! * been telling myself this so many times but i kept PROCASTINATE ! * Decided to finish ALL homeworks by 29 Dec therefore i have around 4 days to REST ! Than , ALL once again will be HECTIC ! Alright , will update SOON ! (:

Updates after ages!

2010-11-22T18:48:00.004+08:00

Alright i'm finally updating this DEAD blog of mine after ages! (:
The End Of Year exams has ended was not quite happy with my results though they improved but the ranking drop. Mum was rather disappointed with my grades and kept saying that i need to have chinese tution already. Oh My.
Also, for the first week of the holiday i had extended lessons. Teacher boom us with super many knowledge. Was very glad i turn up for all the lessons. BUT, maths was horible. Had tons of work to do. 'GREAT'.
CPR test will be coming on the 8 Dec 2010. excited! (: But worried for my theory -.-
Anyways, currently this break is really a break been playing and using computer for alot alot of days and time. didnt study much felt so guilty.
Yepps! I also checked with courses i want to go and some other alternatives. It seems that CCA points cant be used to deduct from this year onwards? I'm not very sure about this. And also the course i want to go the intake is very SMALL. like only 25? Moreover, the points is like 14 and below. Gosh. I wonder if i can go for that. :( If not what should i go? A different route instead? Or what else? I'm really really going to buck up and study hard for my studies now. Because my standard now i can only go for L1R4 is only 18 :( GOSH GOSH GOSH! Alright shall end here. Will be updating soon i believe (:

I thank GOD.

2010-09-10T11:19:00.003+08:00

Been ages since i blog-ed. my blog half-dead alrd uh. :X
Well, through this period of time, obviously many things happened.
Moved house cant really adapt to the new flat yet.
But, thanks to people who stood by me throughout everything that happenes. Especially Keith kee eh (:
Loads of reflection made through this period of time. really thank God for everything. though the flat i'm not really please or whatsoever, i thank God for helping me in giving me comfort nights, providing people to help me or even comfort me.
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Whatever it is it's time to move on. I must stop thinking about how good was the past compared to now. As it is, the PAST. I'm living in the PRESENT now. Focus on the PRESENT not the PAST. PAST was simply the good old memories, the place to learn things from. It ain't the same anymore because things ARE different. No matter what, it will be simply a FRESH START AND NEW BEGINING.
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Recently, thanks to MIGRANES and of course my laziness, been slacking off. zzzz totally worried for EYE. Awesome. But what's the point of worrying right? (: Thus, i must must must really really study hard! Just simply to PROVE TO MYSELF and no one else (:
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I'll grow after every fall. After every fall, i bruise and cry but i'll always get up again for i am NOT ALONE. (:
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Alright, shall end here. going blog again soon (: take care peeps. (:

Lost under the rain

2010-07-25T17:05:00.004+08:00

Alright, another update once again. Just 1 week many things happened. Seriously, bangpig.
Through this heavy downpour, many rainbows came into my life though.
By saying rainbow i mean those people who make me smile.
One example would be the Jurong Point trip with Angeline Deer, Huixian and Minyi. First, we went to have our lunch, than went to Fairprice express. Min yi took a trolley along cause she scare later her things heavy so we took a trolley and i said i wanted to look around. its nice exploring though :O Than, Deer sat inside the trolley after we walk-ed around the area etc. SO, guess what i did? *evil grins* As she pretended to be a kid, of course BULLY her lah HAHAHAHA. shall not state how i bullied her. cause i'm very bad :O
Anyways, after the fairprice trip, we went to the TOILET and they passby a shop whereby it sells balloon. Guess what, Huixian and Deer wanted to buy though. But Deer no money so ended up Minyi treat the 2 kids. Great.
Guess what happen next? the 2 kids begin to hit us with the balloons -.-
BLAH BLAH BLAH. lazy elab many funny things happened and we reached lakeside i departed from them cause my mum was nearby taking her boss van back home :D save my time LOL.
Though these rainbows managed to make me smile, but still.. sadness liners around me.
This time i don't know if i could continue bending.
Such news shocked me. But, it was something to be predicted for.
Moreover, there are so much memories lingering around me how could i bear to let all those go?
Did you two people ever bear a though for me? Did you two people ever think how the environment would cause me? So many things that i must let go of. Yet, i cant bear to.
Alright people, shall stop blogging. i still need to complete my FNN. bye peeps.
i could feel the break in my heart when i know of THAT news, i could see my tears dropping down one by one, i could sense all the sadness filled within.

5th generation leaders summit

2010-07-17T21:55:00.002+08:00

Hello Peeps! A quick update on today!
Had the 5th generation leader's summit at Monfort Secondary.
Starting, was seriously kill me uh.
My group like ghost town.
Very quiet. Nobody talk. Nobody initiate.
So, ended up i've been initiate till i sien.
Thank God that things got better when we're like going back to the hall for the presentation thingy.
Started to talk to Erica. A girl from Nan Qiao Secondary.
Than, the day started! YAY!
The whole presentation, i was trying to be imersed to the floor hoping i wont get sabo.
Meanwhile, i sabo people. Especially the RI guy.
Than after that, went for LUNCH!
Something upsetting happen-ed though. :X
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Than, went back for group discussion and blah.
Overall the session managed to END on time.
Something really look-ed forward to for the whole thing i feel sucky.
Especially my facs. I'm not trying to be mean. But seriously, he should try to be more firm.
ANYWAYS, after the whole course, went to the nearest bus stop down the school there and than went to AMK.
Went to change and had a talk with ♥ .
AND guess what? In return for all naughty things i did, heehe, i got 9 mosquitoes bite. amazing. :O Is my blood really THAT sweet? :O
Alright, shall stop here. Bye peeps.
♥ iloveyou (:

2nd month

2010-07-16T21:19:00.005+08:00

Happy 2nd month Dear! I've learned that in a relationship, one must learned to be more patient with one another, one must learned to be more forgiving with another, both must communicate together, both must TRUST one another and there will be a tough road ahead. I really want to THANK Dear for being so patient with me. Forgiving all my mistakes and so on. Up till today's incident. It really caught me off guard. I didn't know how to respond you see. But, with such a sucky begining, i'm glad the ending was different. (:

Plus, of course the bus ride! HAHAHAHA. super fun i tell you :X and of course what happened later more funny :O Thankyou for being there when i need. Thank you for being where i could reach. (:

Tough and Smooth times, Sweet and Sour times, Unglam and Glam times, Childish and Mature times. I really want to thank you for giving me such a memory. A memory to be kept.

iloveyou uh (:

cross country

2010-07-16T20:57:00.006+08:00

Alright, today's the 16th July. It's the cross-country and my 2nd month anniversary yeah. So, the next post there will be specially delicated to Pig Dear, people you may choose to skip that post uh. LOL.

Today morning, before 6am, i was alrd running like mad :O
Ran to chase the LRT, Ran to chase the 180 bus.

After 6am, had to ran to find people and ran back. LOL,

Nice day. Well, morning meet Dear at lakeside mrt down there cause i don't know how to go to Japanese Garden uh. Than, we went off to Jap garden. Reached around 6.35am? LOL. dam early. quite dark though i almost went to HUG the ground heehe.

ANYWAYS, many things happen than the cross country started, and by the time, i sweated like LOL. -.-

And, this year cross country was amazing. We allowed the secondary 2 boys to go and run than, they came back as though they just swam in the lake :O Dam wet. cause after they ran off, it started raining. i pity them uh :O

ANYWAYS, this year cross country it seems like they ran the wrong path cause they could actually came back as early as 12minutes for BOYS. IMAGINE THAT! LOL,

ANYWAYS, CHANGE TOPIC.

As it rained and than shine and than rain, and we actually saw a FULL RAINBOW! pretty.

It's really awesome. PLUS, Shirley told me that a Rainbow actually means that when God decides not to destroy the world, he send a Rainbow. (: It's written in the book of Genesis though.

After cross country, went to superbowl there at Taman jurong with Dear, Eenex, Vinh, Anh toh (i really dono how to spell their names -.-). Than, watch them play bowling and then afterthat, went for lunch and BLAH. shall not elab more. LOL,

Okay people, would update soon other tha the next post HAHAHA. (:

stress-ed.

2010-07-10T20:41:00.005+08:00

Alright, this post is just to kinda MOTIVATE MYSELF :D hahaha.
Well, been feeling quite sucky this week or even ever since school reopen.
Stress are piling up, and i finally felt it.
Family, Studies, School, Friends, CCA, what's more to go?
I don't know.
But well, i must really apologise to several people who i kinda like flare up on you people.
There's a few though.
And of course, sorry Dear for like making you pissed, annoyed and disappointed many many times. VERY VERY SORRY :X
Common test are all upcoming.
I don't have that stamina to push myself futher. I wonder what should i do?
Bend and don't break again? How long would i be able to move on than?
God help me.
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Anyways, shall not go too emotional this post. Well, this term i'm really enjoying my history lessons! It's kinda fun and interesting. Every lesson got video see. We finally covered the WW1. Learned the allied power and central power, the Germans, Russian Empire, Austria-Hungary, Serbia, Ottoman Empire (Turkey), Italy, France, Belgium etc. :D hopefully this spirits will keep going. Oh yes! During history many funny things happened esp last lesson! Mr Fairoz actually forgotten he placed sounds in his ppt of his stupid animations on the maps and he JUMP-ED when he was showing us the map. LOL. epic uh. hahahaha. Angeline laugh like really LOL lor. hahahahah.
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Well, today i had a YOG (youth olympic games) WCV (World culture village) Host thingy.
It was a not so good start. For people were late and things happen-ed. Than we went NIE and we couldn't get in to the toilets. Amazing. Anyways when we reached outside LT 1 (our lecture hall) i saw Ethen and was reminded of camp Evo.
Ethen was really LOL when we started with the lectures and stuff. we're all laughing at what he said.
many dumb things occur. Yio chu kang secondary was spelled as YEO chu kang secondary.
And, we heard that previously, canberra secondary was said as canberry secondary LOL.
and many other funny things. we also learn-ed the POS-SI-SIF-VI-TY! :D haaha.
Than we were break into groups and had a unique ice-breaker thingy. was quite interesting though. Than we had tea break and went back for a talk at LT 1 again and we went for the i beg your pardon thingy. was fun! i prefer being the acting host than the athelets. cause the character was like LOL. hahaha anyways after that, we went back LT 1 and we went for our amazing race. As before that i was sms-ing Mr nazri asking somethings, than when we had amazing race, i told him and he said this : It's wet and there is still amazing race? Amazing. Tell the rest to be careful. It's wet and slippery. Safety first. Won't get 1 million even if you win.
How cute is this message? I almost went ROFL. don't ask me whyies i just think its funny. Than, I sms-ed Mr nazri asking where was the ATM machine LOL. how dumb this is? instead of finding it i just simply ask for directions LOL. Well, the amazing race was kinda ...... hahhaa. abit boring and we were getting worn out! walk around NIE like mad and took photos. -.- and blah. lazy to elab futher. Well, when it was ending, Ethen told me : I remembered you from camp evo. LOL, i was like totally shock-ed. LOL. i thought he had forgotten :O but still overall i still prefer Ethen talk!
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Alright, got to go and do homeworks alrd. No life totally. -.- Bye people. (:
iloveyou Dear - Keith Kee Han Wei a.k.a Skinny Pig! (:

First week of school ;

2010-07-04T00:12:00.010+08:00

School reopen-ed. First three days of school was one word to describe. Horrible. Homework deadlines chased me crazy. Stress piles up. Pressure goes up.
First day of school was LATE for Student councillor meeting due to a traffic jam uh :X Than loads of things happen-ed. Attend-ed lesson as usual instead when i was hoping for just NOTHING the morning. like doing admin stuff instead of having lesson? But ended up my first lesson of the semester was the horri-getable chinese lesson. Than alot of crap mention. But the only thing was great was able to TALK with my friends uh PLUS after school had CCA till 6pm. amazing. Second day, wasn't any better. More pressure came along. Teacher starts to rush and push us for homework. PLUS that freak G.C.E. O Level examinations in coming leture started. Like please, stop stressing us teachers. Third day or second day, i seriously was so TIRED of everything. that i really didnt feel like talking or looking at anyone. But, obviously it's impossible. therefore, i ask Farhana along to accompany me do my recess gate duty and i ask her to talk crap. I just want-ed someone be there to TALK and nothing more. Seriously thanks Farhana. Fourth and Fifth day, survived. i bounce-ed back to try and breathe. Maybe i'm coping well than i hope. But still things are pilling up like *toot* i need to clear them before they become the stones on my shoulder.
Well, saturday was average. Spend my time outside again. Celebrated Sihui birthday, was fun at several parts and SORRY Qw uh, you had to travel here and there. TODAY i'm going to watch finish my ep 4 of the taiwan drama i'm watching than do my homeworks and going church and lifesaving lesson LOL,
After a storm, will be the rainbow . I'm going to hang on there to appreciate the rainbow .

Sentosa ; School reopening,

2010-06-27T15:26:00.004+08:00

Well, last friday went to SENTOSA with Shirley for bible study!
We met up took the train, went vivo and wait for the rain to stop. Soon bian eat Brunch.
Than went to Silso Beach for study.
And afterthat, went EXPLORING! :D
dam fun uh, walk here and there and we went to a bicycle track because we wanted to walk to ..... ? i can't remember hehe.
Had a amazing experience though, lazy to type out. And took bus to the .....? station and we walk around there and stuff.
THAN, we went to Pa dono what beach. and went to the place up in the picture. ITS DAM DAM DAM NICE OKAY. :D went to explore quite many places. End-ed up when we went back Vivo, my leg are alrd aching. still had to squeeze into the OMG PEAK HOUR TRAIN. LOL,
okay, shall not really elab more. dam lazy type.
School is re-opening tmr. Seriously, i hope time would S.T.O.P . ._.
someone save me .

Secondary 2 bonding camp ;

2010-06-24T20:45:00.003+08:00

Alright people, reviving the dead blog of mine. Well, had the secondary 2 bonding camp on the 22 June 2010. It was well, kinda tiring. Had headaches, leg pain etc. -.- Plus, not many secondary 2 student councillor came also. Morning started off sucky. Than afternoon was getting better esp after the blindfold game. Than it came to the station games i was so dam tiring repeating my debrief for 2 stations, 3 groups :S Midway Dear help-ed me to do cause really feel not so good :X Than, after station games they had free time, dam tired so slacked there and talked with Kahman and Dear (: Halfway went to do the clean up ALONE, -.- And, Dear came to find where did i went? i think. LOL, cause when i finish clearing, i went up the stairs and he was there. LOL, and, during their free time, really dam impress by their ENERGY man. Dam hyper like not tired de. LOL, okay. shall end here seems to be typing crap (: TAKE CARE PEOPLE,
Smile smile smile smile dear :D

movie outing with Qingwen

2010-06-19T21:05:00.004+08:00

Alright, watch movie with Qingwen yesterday. On the way there saw Gim Hsiang and his tall friend they were going to watch toy story 3 3D. Thought was going to watch toy story 3 too therefore told Gim Hsiang maybe might meet each other at the cinema. And he poke-ed me to get his revenge :O Afterthat, reached lot 1 and went to garden plaza and meet Qw, she was with her classmates though, all guys all i dono -.- Than, we went to buy ticket and Qw say she want watch karate kid. Therefore, sms Gh and told him that i'm watching other show. Than he said his friend ask-ed if we want to sit tgt and watch tgt but than, nevermind alrd. LOL, Anyway, then we brought the tickets, and went back to garden plaza there and sit around to kill time, than qw borrow-ed her friend iphone and went to see STOMP. got some real funny news though, esp 1 related to the flood in orchard de. Than, we went to walk around to kill time and brought popcorn ( as qw want to eat. ) The popcorn was like amazing BIG i tell you. And off we went into the cinema. Some funny things happen-ed ask me if you want to know. LOL, i lazy type uh. Anyways, watched the movie was not bad. But some parts didnt focus was busy talking with Qw heehe. Than after that shop around lot 1 and HSH. (:
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Uh, today was dam boring :O practically was shopping my whole afternoon. -.- Alright, i'm really lazy to type now. Going ROT. :O
Bye people, like seriously, i hope NDP faster end. -.-

Shanghai Wuxi trip

2010-06-14T22:03:00.004+08:00

Alright! Here's the update after coming back from Shanghai Wuxi. It was an amazing trip with things to learn and indeed to take a break and relax. I shall give a summarize of the whole trip for i'm kinda lazy to type out everything of what happened.

Day 0 : We met at the airport, check-ed in and begin to be slightly bonded with Kahman and Angeline.

Day 1: Reached China, went to wuzhen for lunch and shop. The food was rather satly and not so nice. Begin my RICE eating on that meal. ( Rice eating kinda means eating plain rice with some salty vegetables or the soup) Than, went to shop and photo taking. Seriously, dam tired of walking. -.- After that we travelled to Wuxi. (like finally) checked in hotel and pack our stuff till dam nice. That night, Yihuan and Wanxin and along with kahman came to our room to play Uno. Dam funny i tell you. :X

Day 2 : Went to Donglin Middle School and attended 1 day of lesson. As usual, i'm not used to the food. Ate RICE only again. Plus, the fruit they give dam big i tell you. Had dance, exercising, physic, english, maths, music lessons. The dance lesson i pity wanling kena sabo by angeline LOL, shall not mention more. lazy typed out. Anyways, before we left, we had a mini-celebration though. Really amazed by what they did. It as though we're some VIPs. I like my partner though, Called Shen Ze. She's a nice girl and quite funny (: After that, went back hotel and had to changed room. dam siens i tell you. after making our room so cosy. we had to packed back everything. -.- shall not mention anymore. spoils mood.

Day 3 : Went to the Language school in the morning expecting to teach someone of my same age. Ended up we taught some kids instead. Really kids. around 7 - 9 years old? and their english standard is like kindergarden seriously. teach till going bangpig. Than had lunch at a restaurant nearby. And, we slacked at there for like dam long i tell you. Till my whole table almost sleep. Than, we walked to the old folks home. At there, we clean the place, picked the litters. and than, talked with a elderly. i kinda forget his name though :X tang dono what de :X learn quite abit from him which i seriously dono what to type in words. Than i can't recall what happened alrd. Than, went back hotel and did my homework plus bible study thingy till rather late while kahman, huiyu and mandy came to our ( me and angeline) room.
Day 4: Morning woke up and went to sightseeing! Went to the Three Kingdoms City and see their shows etc. Well, the only thing i enjoyed was : Playing the swing with wanxin and the see-saw :X After that went to some restaurant to eat. It was disaterous. Worms in vege, worms in Yilong fruit. ._. Therefore, for the first time, i didn't even finish 1 small bowl of rice. After that went to Taihu lake, Lihu new town and Commercial area in wuxi. At Taihu lake, seriously i regretted taking the boat with Yilong, Angeline, You Zhen, Hui yu, Sam. LOL, Amazing experience. Thanks to Yilong and You Zhen. After that, we went to the commercial area and me and wanxin decided to shop seperately cause everytime follow You Zhen it's like we cant really buy what we wanted. And seriously, the Chong An Si have many things to shop. I brought 2 things for myself, than the rest for gifts, and some things for mum (: Afterthat, Back to hotel and as usual the girls except Yihuan and Wanxin came to our room.
Day 5: Morning woke up dam early just to wash my hair :X than went to eat breakfast. surprisingly, we were the first for once :X other than the teachers. And we checked out of the hotel and went to the Wuxi Clay Figurine Factory there brought gifts. Than we had lunch at some hotel and went to a museum and free time. Didn't really shop was so tired. Therefore, we went to kfc and eat tea break :X As we gather for dinner, we went to the same restaurant -.- and many of us that was sitting in the same table didnt eat much cause was full from the tea break. Than we went to some riverside and see scenery and blah. than talked with angeline and went back to bus. Than, proceed back to the airport. everyone was waiting to go to the airport toilet :X Seriously, appreciate Singapore toilets :X Alright, continue with my story. went to the airport was so freaking tired. hoping to meet Wen Hui and indeed! halfway i was watching the tv, wen hui appeared and i suddenly HIGH! Something good happened on the plane. wen hui sat infront of me and sam sat beside me (: Heng not strangers. Alright i'm kinda lazy to elab more. Than we took plane and HSH! (:

before i go to china

2010-06-01T19:58:00.004+08:00

Alright, this post will be one rare post without photos for i can't seems to upload. *frowns*
Uh, will be off to Shanghai - wuxi on 3 june 1.25am than tomorrow 11pm will check-in to the airplane. And, i will spend my night on either the airplane or airport till the next morning 6.25am which i'll already reach Shanghai Pudong International Airport and teacher estimated that we'll check out of the airport by around 7.25am for we have quite a number of people. ._. i think i'll fall asleep while waiting. After that, we'll have breakfast and proceed on air-condition (thank goddness.) coach to Jiangnan town - wuzhen for our lunch than continue our journey to Wuxi. most probably will arrive in the late afternoon. then check in hotel and dinner plus daily debrief :D Day 2 will be going to Wuxi Donglin Secondary School for immersion programme. Will be attending their lessons the whole day and CCAs. Day 3 will be doing CIP, i will basically be going to the Language School to teach them english and going to old folks home (i dono do what). Day 4 & 5 will be sightseeing at Three kingdom city, Wuxi Taihu Lake, Lihu New town, commercial area in Wuxi, Wuxi Huishan Clay Figurine Factory, Shanghai Nanjing Road, Oriental Pearl Tower and lastly, Shanghai Pudong International Airport (: This time its another midnight plane but, it'll be 1 hour earlier LOL, its from 00.10am till 05.25am LOL,
Uh, last minute don't feel like going uh, LOL, tsk tsk tsk. Okay, got to go now, still need complete my FNN and some other stuff -.- Take care people, will blog once i'm back. Miss me uh LOL, kidding (:

21/5/2010

2010-05-21T21:45:00.004+08:00

Alright, here's some update now, thanks to Pig uh, call me update. I can't believe people DO visit the dead blog of mine (:
Hmm, exams had finished, results are out. Uh, thanks to Mr. Stanley Yeo ( i wonder if i spell correctly) i managed to get a A1 for my social studies, and quite good for my english summary (: though my english still only get 52 but, well, better than nothing. Also, i would like to thank Keith, Angeline, Jessica for accompany to study during the exam period uh, my results wasn't what i expected though. i was hoping for at least 55 and above for Amaths. and i got like only 53. Uh, Emaths was awesome this time round, but i didn't manage to get a B3 (: nevertheless, i manage to pass this time round (: Biology and Food & Nutrition was my worst and disappointing subjects. FNN was taught wrongly. Biology, i had too much to study that i skiped the Nutrition in human, uh. But, i shouldn't really regret since it had happen alrd right? ....
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Well, had shooting meeting on wednesday. I'm in the School Team, and once again the Captain or whatever thingy de. Uh, I dono whyies, i feel both excited yet not. Uh, bangthewall .
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Thursday had the briefing for students who are going to Shanghai - Wuxi. I will be going China from 3 June - 8 June (: however, i have to be at the airport by 2 June 11pm for my plane leaves at 1.25am on 3 June. midnight plane uh, than i will be reaching Shanghai around 6.25am? and the check-out thingy or whatever blah blah will most prob be 1 hour so meaning i will be stuck for another 1 hour. then to breakfast or whatsoever. i can't really remember. (:
I only remember that i'm in group 1. Yihuan in charge of my group. My group members are : Wan Xin, Angeline, Yi Huan, Myself, He Feng and Feng Yu. Heng all of them i know who are they LOL, Kinda excited for the trip. But also dread for it. .______.
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Today after FNN, dash out to toilet chase Kahman and minyi to the basketball foyer cause got phototaking, one word to descibe this year phototaking, Stupid. We was standing together as the Planning Council because basically the bench does not have enough space to seat on. Than, i realize, Cyrus was missing. ._. Thank God, Cyrus managed to appear at the last minute uh, after that, went to canteen find some human for that China trip booklet. Uh, i totally forgotten to collect from several people. Monday need continue to collect ._. Than, lunch with angeline and keith. walked to CU, then we was like Uh, CU again arhs? its like see till sien liao lorh LOL, super crappy. than we go to the coffee shop behind CU, and blah blah blah. Lazy type. But, there is something i must mention. ANGELINE NG DEAR! You today super funny lah, i see so many unglam of you, i wonder China how lehs. LOL,
haaha, alright its getting late now. going sleep soon. Take care people. :D
Uh, seriously, i DREAD the holidays. Cause OBS and China trip. would someone just understand? :X

Exams.

2010-05-15T11:15:00.004+08:00

Finally exams are over, huge relief felt. I no longer need to fight for teachers with seconday 5. haaha, Yesterday was the last paper. and the most stressful paper. Had FNN & A.Maths together. didn't really studied for A.Maths was busy focusing on FNN, thank God for whatever i studied was tested except 1 or 2 parts. However, i couldn't really absorb the water topic and it came out MOSTLY, uh, but nevermind. A.maths paper next was really LOL, I did halfway and fell asleep. woke up, continue to do. Left several blanks mostly cannot do. at least 10 marks was gone i think. The graph was very tricky uh, almost cheated my marks away. haaha, Anyways, yesterday exam was the most funny exam. cause our classroom is like contagious. I cough cough cough, then another side sneeze. i sneeze, another side cough, LOL, but during A.maths min kai bth, cause me and someone else keep coughing LOL, then min kai after exam come complain to me LOL! After that went home and fever LOL, thank God during early evening after sleeping for like 3 hours? My fever dropped. But, i was left with 5 mosquito bites on my leg.Uh, alright shall end here. I dono what i posting either. But, it seriously feel good after mye. For it's like having a raindow after a rain (:

confused

2010-05-07T17:51:00.004+08:00

Hmm, Mid-Year Exam (MYE) is here. Chinese, Social studies and English paper 1 is over. like finally. But, I really think that my english paper 1 go bang wall alrd. Social studies i never write finish. like 2 more sentence? Uh. i need more time management ): Chinese is another bang wall subject. But, i would now focus on my 9 papers next week. 2 A.maths paper, 2 E.maths paper, 1 English paper, 1 FNN paper, 3 Science paper. I really pray that whatever i study, will not go to waste, i will be able to gain more wisdom, knowledge and concentrations. I will be able to turn negative thoughts to positive, from helpless to hopeful, from frowns to smiles. MYE is here, and loads of problems came along with it. Why can't those problems give me a break? I'm so tired at times. So annoyed at times. But how do i tell you? How can i tell you everything i'm thinking? You, have so much problems too. Do you know how upset i am that you are working so hard to support me? Do you know i'm doubting whether your new job actually suits you? Sometimes all i want is just more attention from you. I want your love, your care 24/7. But i know 24/7 is impossible. therefore, i only want it when i'm home. Yet, you aren't home often when i am. Do you know to me, you are my whole world other than God, you are my mother, my friend, my motivater, ..... Do you know what is the reason behind that i push myself forward? That is to fufill the promise i made to you once. I AM GOING TO UNIVERSITY.. I do not want to give you dissapointment for i know i dissapoint you loads of time in some other area. But, now, i am really confused. I do not know what is the next step i could take. I am being to be getting weary from small things like giving smiles to people to be polite, till big things like the MYE.

But, I'll try to be like the tree who can bend instead of break in tough weather (times). Okay, thats all. Will update soon (:

A new begining.

2010-04-22T19:34:00.003+08:00

Hmm, updating the blog with a quick post for i still have F&N to do.

Well first of all, I've accepted christ (: I feel kinda great after accepting Christ for every sunday i go to church and all those worship seems to allow myself to feel refresh. Trusting in a religion also helps me to have more determination and perseverance.

Next, I want to thank people who have been supporting me mentally, physically these few months especially this year. I am really thankful for all of you who supported me in times whereby i am down.

Then, Prefect Investiture. A overwhelming event uh, Finally its over. Thanks all Councillor for all the hard work put in the performance and helping with the backstage such as helping me with the chairs (: A sucessful event uh, Except for the upper seondary for the pledge. But still, it was a amazing event people! [: I feel so relief that its over.

Last but not the least, Mid-Year Examinations. Its like next friday will be my first paper which is chinese paper 1 and 2. I'm super nervous about it. Than the 4/5 second paper which is english paper 1 and social studies than LESSON for the remaining week till 10/5 will be the continuous of my exams. Seriously, i want to score well. But, my time management is not there now. I seems to have too much things on my plate yet i can't finish them all. I'm really going to burn myself up in this rate. Today chemistry lesson teacher just ask me what happened i almost cry uh. I don't know what's going on. Maybe, i am just stressing myself. Uh, Shag.

Well, i shall end here. i still have my F&N to complete. I really hopes my hard work pay off. (:

Take care people. Most probably will update after MYE before i leave for China. [: want more update visit my facebook!

Questions & Motivation

2010-03-27T21:44:00.003+08:00

How much can one person love another? How much can much can someone motivate another person? How much can one person live? When will the world end? Who will be the one who motivates you? Who will you rely on for help? What will be happening next? Who will be with you? There is so much un-answer question in the world. However, i've found more reasons that i feel i'm overwhemeled. more reasons why i feel suffocated. which, i will not type out. It's privacy :P
Sometimes, i find that i myself ask to much question to my mind. Until i feel kind of overwhelmed. Like, why do i feel annoyed by the teachers during thursday rehersal and stuff. I had thought for a long time. around an hour? while i was on my way home. and i realized that, i shouldn't really let my emotions of feelings control me. i should be the one who is controlling them. Why think so much about things that i think i am unhappy with it? why can't i just let go of the 'past' and move on? I should or even must move on. I still have zillion of trillion of things i wanna do. I can't possibility stuck myself on one particular small things. It's like making a mountain out of a rock?
For my life, i decided to just let things go past. sometimes no matter how hard i want those things to stay, but i just can't they'll just go away what i have to do is just to let go. Once i let go i'll be even happier. There is no point holding on to things that don't belong to you, you'll only feel suffocated. Life is short, i gotta move on. [:

The pathway.

2010-03-15T16:31:00.005+08:00

This month is a really stressful one for me though. Despite that its only like half of the month, i actually want to give up on what i was doing. Really burn out for the past 2 months. Jan and Feb has overwhelme me. Everytime i wanna bent but i break. Everytime i told myself just a little further. Just a little further. sometimes i managed to bend, but this month breaking seems easier. I actually broke down thrice this year. twice this month already.

A maths is killing me now. Plus several more academic stuff. Like my english, E maths results. and so. I know that perserverance leads to sucess. i tried to perserver at times, but i just couldn't. I'm begining to lose my patience on small stuff like talking nicely to people, listen to people troubles and other small stuff. Plus, i just cant seems to be motivated now. The pathway now seems to be truding uphill. I want to smile, but i can only frown. i really don't know what to do. At times i really just want to stone down there or even just sleep the whole day, however, i have to move on. i know i have to.

Well, i think i shall end here. need to complete my FNN coursework (:

Take care people. :)

3rd update (:

2010-03-07T17:15:00.005+08:00

Hoho, Updating again (:
SATURDAY (Th-wonderful-est-day-ever).
Woke up at 8.30am just to watch tv! LOL, a show called Dalja's Spring or something liddat. After that, bath & out.
Met sihui at 2pm to study & makan (:
Went to Mac for lunch & NTUC buy stuff.
Than library to study :D
In-between, the studying period, sihui used 4 packets or so of tissue! :X
and, we was suppose to go at 6. but due to my stubborness to solve the maths question, we left at 6.35pm instead :D
Than we went to 'Kopitiam' for dinner. Sat down there, clean the table and think about what to eat. Than, we decided to eat at 'subway' instead. LOL, left 'kopitiam' and went 'Subway' instead. Was hoping for an empty table. However, it was so freaking FULL! >:( therefore, we takeaway the food and went to block 408 :D
Eat, chat, fool around. blah blah.
Talked about zillions of things. from youth hub to relationship to school to anything you can think of (: Was a soothing feeling for me. For i really had a lousy week with those common test and unpleasant stuff. i just BOOM out all i had and stuff. my anger, my frustration and so. Feel so relaxed after that. Sihui is really one super easy talking friend and someone who broke my all-time-friend-record of using TISSUE PAPER :X. She used 11packets man, cool. after that went home at 9pm and watch tv again! :D
feel so relaxed this weekend (:
As for sunday, went to take photo for my IC, than buy some grocery and stuff than HSM. comp, hw and revision :D

PEOPLE! ENJOY THE EVENING AND THE WEEKDAY COMING AHEAD!

Hectic week

2010-03-05T23:45:00.004+08:00

Hello people! As of a new begining, of course, there will be a new blogskin too (:
Well, as for the textbox, im just typically lazy to delete those messages (:
An update about this week.
It's a rather overwhelming & Hectic week. With loads of emotions coming too.
Started off the week with NIE teachers teaching! It's Mr Yeo (for english and social studies) and Ms. Zuzi (for Fnn). Well, monday was still alright. It started off with Tuesday!
Had E-maths common test. Wednesday had SS common test. Thursday had biology test on enzymes, osmosis & diffusion and cells and English letter writing. And a last minute test on Chemistry. Friday had A-maths test on Logs, Exponential, Quadratic and Indices & Surds.
Loads of things happen this week which was rather unpleasing.
Thus, i shall not mention. Alright, got to go now! It's late! ahahahaa,

A New begining

2010-02-27T16:51:00.006+08:00

I've decided to delete all my previous post for a new beginging.

Reading back the past, remembering all those memories, hating people who made me upset. what's the use? (:

I'm going to start afresh.

Like a plain sheet of paper.

Therefore, dont worry that you went to the wrong blog. (:

It's the same, yet different.

New year resolution : Handing homework on time & Being the best that i could (:
not to forget, there is something i am going to work on this year, 2010. That is living life to the fullest, but not to the extreme.

Alright, people. i shall end here. Enjoy the second last day of Chinese New Year.